I had an appointment with my shrink yesterday. She’s not really a talking shrink she’s more of a mental patient pill shrink.
She texted me the time and date of the appointment, 11 a.m. on Monday.
I got there a little early and buzzed to get in the building. No response.
When there was no answer at 11:15 I texted her.
“Are you on your way?”
She wrote back “I moved my office . It’s 3 blocks uptown.I forgot to tell you”
“Way to keep your clientele booming, telling nuts the wrong address. That should set them back a bit.”
I ran up to keep what was left of my appointment.
She always asks me lots of questions about how I’m doing. I always say fine but I’m not looking to work out any problems with her. I have my sister for that. I just want my crazy pills.
She asked me if the pills are working for me. I had to think.
I realized that I have no idea if they are working.
Then I gave it some thought.
I’ve been taking one or another of these pills since my husband said he was leaving and I was either frozen or I couldn’t stop crying.
Do I do that any more? No.
Does that mean I can stop taking them? I still dream of him every night which makes me think I’m still not totally over it.
I was married almost 40 years. Will it take that long to really move on?
If I stop taking them will I go back to feeling the way I did in 2011? That’s a chance I don’t want to take.
“Yes they’re working”.