948 Nuts and Bolts

I had an appointment with my shrink yesterday. She’s not really a talking shrink she’s more of a mental patient pill shrink.

She texted me the time and date of the appointment, 11 a.m. on Monday.

I got there a little early and buzzed to get in the building. No response.

When there was no answer at 11:15 I texted her.

“Are you on your way?”

She wrote back “I moved my office . It’s 3 blocks uptown.I forgot to tell you”

“Way to keep your clientele booming, telling nuts the wrong address. That should set them back a bit.”

I ran up to keep what was left of my appointment.

She always asks me lots of questions about how I’m doing. I always say fine but I’m not looking to work out any problems with her. I have my sister for that. I just want my crazy pills.

She asked me if the pills are working for me. I had to think.

I realized that I have no idea if they are working.

Then I gave it some thought.

I’ve been taking one or another of these pills since my husband said he was leaving and I was either frozen or I couldn’t stop crying.

Do I do that any more? No.

Does that mean I can stop taking them? I still dream of him every night which makes me think I’m still not totally over it.

I was married almost 40 years. Will it take that long to really move on?

If I stop taking them will I go back to feeling the way I did in 2011?  That’s a chance I don’t want to take.

I answered.

“Yes they’re working”.

11 thoughts on “948 Nuts and Bolts

  1. I agree with David and Ann about your wandering shrink. I’m glad you have your sister to talk to. Keep doing what you’re doing, including telling us about it. xo.

  2. Both our “experiences” occurred in 2011 (I discovered you in 2014). The only difference? The girlfriend kicked him out a couple years ago and now he’s back in the house (because in my crazy mind, I think, well it’s his house too until it sells if it ever does) and now we’re living as roomies!

  3. Mine actually died and didn’t tell me. I had to find out via a third party WAY afterwards. Talk about abandonment! In my humble opinion I think you’re doing wonderfully. ♥♥♥

  4. Earlier this month, I read your blog from the beginning on the recommendation of a recently-dumped friend. You write with soul and humour, and now I almost feel as if I know you. Facebook thinks likewise because it just suggested “You may know..” along with your profile. Life is strange. Online life – stranger still.

    I think you’re doing great.

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