Ever since the election I haven’t been myself PLUS all this week I had a cold.
(I know you think this will be a downer but wait)
At 6:15 this morning Ray started barking.
Normally I would just drag myself up and take him out because I am on this earth to serve him.
But for some reason today I mumbled “Gimme a break” and he did.
He jumped right back into bed and went to sleep.
At about 7:30 I woke up on my own and took him out.
THEN I found a dime in the elevator.
I know a better person would have turned it in so the rightful owner could retrieve it but I popped it into my pocket.
I am a woman alone who lives on a budget and this dime could enable me to buy an ice cream cone in 1945 (at least that’s how I rationalized it).
I no sooner hit the street when I noticed one of those guys who works for the Doe Fund* cleaning the streets trying to pull his hood up, it was raining.
Feeling a little guilty about the dime thing I said “Let me help you” and reached around, unzipped his hood and pulled it up over his head. He gave me a big smile.
Feeling really good about myself I decided to make this a teaching moment.
“You must always appreciate Jewish women because they never mind their own business and sometimes it comes in handy.”
He nodded sagely. I could see he was taking it in.
My new attitude of “giving back” (you know the dime windfall) made me think of a discussion I had had with Tammy Gordon.
“Who is Tammy?” you ask.
She is someone I met on Facebook. I’ve never actually met her in person.
When my husband dave ran away I took to writing my blog expecting only my family and friends to read it.
Much to my surprise Tammy, who worked for AARP then, liked it and encouraged me.
When I wanted to submit something to the AARP Magazine I asked her who I should send it to. She not only gave me the names but spoke to people at the magazine to smooth my path.
It turned out they hated everything I wrote and told me that they just don’t include that kind of thing in their mag.
And this after I removed all the fucks and threw commas hither and yon to make it seem intellectual.
Well a few years passed. Tammy left AARP and I think she started her own something but we’ve kept in touch via FB.
Earlier this year she asked if she could rent my Montauk house for a vacation.
I remembered how important her liking my blog was to me. It was the first thing that made me think that I don’t need dave to be creative.
I insisted that she go to the house free if it was before the season when I rent it which she did this past week.
Here she is enjoying herself;
And here’s her dog Ike lying on Ray’s pillow:
Why am I telling you all this? Oh yeah, the pay back thing.
Because Tammy wanted to send me a gift to thank me for letting her use my house which I told her was stupid because I’m letting her use my house to thank her for helping me with AARP and if she gives me a gift I have to thank her for for the gift and it will never end.
My friend Susan Schlossberg Schwartzberg and I hate when people do us favors because we feel so unentitled that if someone picks up a check for dinner we feel like we have to buy them a car.
I just read this over and it doesn’t make any sense but I think today is lucky so when it stops raining I’m going to buy a lottery ticket in case Tammy sends me a gift so I will be able to send her to Europe in return.