I had an epiphany again yesterday.
A friend suggested starting a little business. In my head my immediate reaction was “Don’t be silly. I can’t do that”.
I was wondering why I went there.
One reason is I’ve considered dave and me in the throws of retirement.
Of course I wasn’t actually planning to retire because even with the divorce I’d still be part of the corporation and taking care of the details of his career.
I explain that because his being a free lance worker the only way I’d know what he’s earning is if I handle it.
Now that I’m seeing how he’s handling his money when I’m not in control of it I’m actually worried about him.
Back to my epiphany.
Maybe if dave hadn’t dumped me I’d be moving towards retiring but that was my old life.
My new life is starting and I can do whatever I want with it.
I never thought I could write but I’m doing it every day and loving it.
If a business opportunity comes up that interests me, as long as it doesn’t take money I can try it if I want to. And even if it takes money. I may be able to get a loan or a grant or something for being a woman, a senior citizen and a loser.
There’s a whole bunch of things I can try if I want to.
If only I wasn’t so scared.