My skin is so thin that I feel like I can’t take one more thing, bad or good.
But I know who I am and I know I will handle the things that are overwhelming me.
Here are some of them.
1. I have to introduce the separation agreement to dave this week.
1A – Got no choice. I knew it would come to this and after it’s signed it will be over. I just hope it’s fast.
2. At first I planned to do it all by email but he needs to sign our income tax papers so I will have to see him.
2A see 1A
3. Discuss the agreement without crying.
3A So what if I cry. He should be crying because of what he’s losing. (Don’t think I don’t know how lame that sounds. He’s skipping down the road with his slut, spending all the time he wants on his boat and probably living the life he’s always wanted.I doubt very much that he’s thinking of what he’s lost)
4. Going to that sleep place again on Thursday because it seems that I do have sleep apnea. I”m dreading this.
4A. I will take my big time tranq’s so the time will just fly and my friend Susan will have dinner with me before so I won’t be able to dwell on it.
It’s not like it’s all shitty.
I’m seeing my family on Passover.We’re doing a matzoh/gefilte fish bbq.
I’m going on a trip with my sister who I love so much.
Then hopefully I will begin my new life and get happy .
Grilled gefilte fish. Yum.
Mattie, good luck with the meeting. It will be awkward and painful, but this too shall pass. Just think of all the wonderful things you have to look forward to. Easy for me to say, I know, but see 1A.
You know Aislinn, one of the things that makes me happy in my new life are the people like you who react to my blog and give me encouragement.
I don’t understand why YOU have to give the papers to Dave- why isn’t your lawyer doing this? Or some homeless guy – for coffee money?
Because it’s cheaper
If ever there was a woman who pulled her socks up and took care of business, even when it was hard, that woman is you. You rock the freaking house.
Thank you so much.
Now I just have to be as brave as you think I am.
I have experience with sleep apnea. Have gone thru the testing procedures at a sleep center in the city. You mentioned taking tranquilizers to make the time go by faster. But I wouldn’t suggest doing that although I can understand the impulse to hurry the overnight ordeal! I believe the tranquilizers mightl skew the test results. And I believe this second visit to the sleep center is when they fit you with a mask that’s attached to a CPAP machine. During this visit they determine the setting for the pressure that the air will flow into your mask. The pressure setting is important because it is the power of the pressure that keeps your throat open all night. Normally, when a person has sleep apnea their throat closes down many times during ddurduri during the night restricting the amount of air that you breathe in. You don’t get enough oxygen
Thank you. this clears up a lot of what I’ve been thinking