My skin is so thin that I feel like I can’t take one more thing, bad or good.
But I know who I am and I know I will handle the things that are overwhelming me.
Here are some of them.
1. I have to introduce the separation agreement to dave this week.
1A – Got no choice. I knew it would come to this and after it’s signed it will be over. I just hope it’s fast.
2. At first I planned to do it all by email but he needs to sign our income tax papers so I will have to see him.
2A see 1A
3. Discuss the agreement without crying.
3A So what if I cry. He should be crying because of what he’s losing. (Don’t think I don’t know how lame that sounds. He’s skipping down the road with his slut, spending all the time he wants on his boat and probably living the life he’s always wanted.I doubt very much that he’s thinking of what he’s lost)
4. Going to that sleep place again on Thursday because it seems that I do have sleep apnea. I”m dreading this.
4A. I will take my big time tranq’s so the time will just fly and my friend Susan will have dinner with me before so I won’t be able to dwell on it.
It’s not like it’s all shitty.
I’m seeing my family on Passover.We’re doing a matzoh/gefilte fish bbq.
I’m going on a trip with my sister who I love so much.
Then hopefully I will begin my new life and get happy .