I may be going crazy.

Yesterday once again something happened that put another nail in my losing it coffin.

Somewhere in my house is a necklace that my mother gave me that I always wear when I want to look nice. I keep it hanging on my bed post.

It’s nowhere to be found. I will search and search but I feel very hopeless. I know no one took it. I must have put it down someplace. I do that kind of thing all the time.

My sister is coming next week and she says she’ll help me look for it. Here’s hopin’

But that’s not the crazy part.

Here goes.

David dropped by this morning. He just got back from London and he’s leaving today for Toronto so I won’t see him until I get to Santa Fe.

He saw my giant suitcase on the floor with clothes spilling out of it and he started in on me.

“You’re going there for 3 days! What is all that stuff?”

“Choices. ”

I won’t go into the rest of the conversation about him saying that Santa Fe is a casual town and me answering that I only packed 3 gowns and one mink stole (like I would wear mink).

I told him that when I heard that he wasn’t traveling with me I thought, “What the  hell, I’ll check my bag”.

If you recall he said that if I checked anything he’d leave my ass at the airport.

In spite of that I told him that I’m so sad that I’m not traveling with him even if he was going first class and I’d be going coach.

Then he told me that since he had to change his reservation there were no first class seats on his plane and he will be going coach too.

Small comfort since I won’t be there to see it.

After he left I got an email from American Airlines saying that I can check in now.

I followed the instructions.

At one point I was asked if I wanted to upgrade to first class for $90 on the first leg of my trip. I didn’t even hesitate. “Yep” I said.

Another first. I never changed planes before. I never flew alone. I never went first class.

Only after I gave my credit card number did I realize how stupid that was. I almost never eat out any more.  I haven’t bought anything new in a year.  Last week I ate peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for dinner three times. And here I was spending $90 for a small part of my trip.

Then I started thinking of David crumpled up in coach and me stretching out in first and even without my necklace the day got a little sunnier.