My sister, Marcia just reminded me that last year she was sick and I fasted for her sins. I didn’t remember but she never lies so it must be so.

Considering how shitty this year turned out you can bet I’m not doing that again.

Today is Yom Kippur. The day of atonement. I’ve never fasted. When my mother was alive she always said she was fasting for my sins and after she died, my sister took over for her.

This is an interesting turn of events since I am not the skinniest member of the family but I am the most persuasive  and you never stop being the baby of a family. My sister still thinks I’m cute.

50 years ago I graduated from the High School of Music and Art. I was friendly with a girl named Rennie. She was funny and smart and beautiful. I just remember laughing all the time when I was with her.

When we left high school we all went off to college and she and I never kept in touch. Every once in awhile I’d wonder what ever happened with her.

Once I googled her and when I got on facebook I searched for her but as I suspected she was too hip for facebook.

Anyway a few months ago my 50^th high school reunion took place. I was in no mood to go so I just skipped it. Even before this all happened I figured after 50 years no one was going to come up and say “Mattie you haven’t changed a bit”.

After the reunion I looked on line at the reunion photos. I didn’t see Rennie but I did see her email address on the class list.

Thinking she probably wouldn’t even remember me I emailed her anyway.

Not only did she but she was as glad to hear from me as I was to hear from her.

And here’s the remarkable thing. She is as clever and smart as I remember her.

We’ve been emailing for a few months and we finally met yesterday for lunch.

The funny thing is I’ve been limiting my contacts yet here I was jumping into something new. Very unlike me.

We sat for over 2 hours and talked over each other trying to catch up.

I was looking at her across the table and in a matter of moments I moved back in time.

Her face was exactly the same. She had the same dry wit.

Life had beaten us both up a bit but we were both in there.

I’m glad I made  this contact.

A few years ago I was installing something on my computer and they asked me to take a little questionaire to rate their service.

As soon as I put in my birthdate they said “thank you, good-bye”

To make sure I was right I started again making myself 20 years younger and the questionnaire continued on.

I was so outraged that I sent a letter to Steve Jobs telling him about all the complicated programs I run and how I’ve been a mac user since it’s inception. How dare they dismiss me because of my age.

About 10 minutes after I mailed it I realized that it wasn’t Apple but Cablevision that had sent me the questionnaire.

I immediately sent off another letter. I told him about the mistake and how horrified I was about my previous letter and that all it proved was that Cablevision was right. I should be dismissed due to age. This would never have happened to me 20 years ago.

A few days later I got a phonecall from Steve Job’s assistant. He was laughing. He said he had to call me and let me know Steve got the second letter. He wanted to put me out of my misery.

Steve Jobs R.I.P

I  opened my computer this morning and my itunes was charged $10.88 for an app called “Japanese Phrases and Lessons”

What was it that Jennifer Anniston said about Brad Pitt having a missing sensitivity chip?

Sometimes you forget that the man that you married is still in there.

I had written a whole post about him getting his teeth fixed now so I would have to pay half. I was really feeling self righteous because I’m trying to cut corners everywhere.

Well that’s not the case. He’s paying for his teeth.

He also has been asking me for loans from my father’s money to tide him over until we can divide the pension.I’ve been giving them to him but I keep worrying that he’ll go to Japan and won’t pay me back.

Today he said he doesn’t want me to lose money by selling stuff so he wants to pay me interest. I would never take interest from him and I told him so.

It’s so much easier when he’s cold and thoughtless and I can pretend that I’m not losing anything because the man I loved isn’t there but he is there. He just loves someone else.

This is making me really sad. Plus I’m so worried about his health. None of his tests are back yet.

One good thing is that he has stopped drinking. He says he hasn’t had a drink since last Thursday.

He’s really great when he isn’t drinking. It will be much harder to say good bye to that man.

I was in Liz’s house waiting for a break in the constant football games so we could have our cocktail hour when Liz said “I just saw dave going into  your house.”

I went next door and he was looking for the cd for his music program.

On the piano bench was a miniature pink umbrella with little Japanese pictures on it.

I wanted to beat him over the head with it.

Well I haven’t written for a few days.

I went to Montauk again with my nephew, Brian and niece (daughter) Cheryl and their 2 terrific kids.

Even though it’s October we spent most of the time on the beach and eating at terrific restaurants.

There was a slight cloud over my weekend because the doctor was asking for a few more tests on dave and though I think I hate him for this I’m scared that something bad will be found.

The whole weekend Cheryl was glued to the internet checking out his symptoms. I guess my family doesn’t feel as worried about him as I do.

I’d be reading my book and Cheryl would yell over “does he have itchy skin?”

I realize that if I think of anything bad happening to him at any hands other than mine it upsets me so I’m not going to think about it.

He made my weekend easier by sending me an email on Saturday saying that he was getting 2 implants and he had charged $10,000 to our American Express card. He had been putting this off for 3 years now it’s clear he wants to do it before our money is separated.

Why the hell does he need teeth? Japanese food is soft. It’s not like he’s moving to Germany or someplace that you really have to chew stuff.

I bet that slut is behind this. In that sex letter she sent him there was a lot of biting.